Why

Do I lie to a point where it's difficult to differentiate between the falsifications and myself
Do I make endless strings of promises when I know I can't/wont abide by them
Do I commit myself to things when I know I'm going to lose interest in them
Do I have such a paralyzing difficulty in deciding what I want in this life
Do I not accept that I need other people's help
.......Like a small animal crushed
My will was extinguished
With a muffled yelp.